Brief Update... more to come...

Work has been chaotic. I never really got into the blog update swing of things before the world came crashing down on me. I'm working at the university and at the community college here as a captionist. I have also taken on the position of coordinating/scheduling interpreters at the university. This is where things get chaotic... I'm spending my breaks between captioning assignments on my phone or email. We have far more students than providers. I think I could safely say almost half has many providers to the number of students. When classes are more than an hour I have to team people up. So 3 hour class blocks I have 2 providers who are not available for anything else during that time... No wonder my boss asked me to take it on. She was promoted a year ago to Department head or whatever her nice new title is and this is just too time consuming for her to manage any more.

Home life... I feel like Jorge pays more attention to his little cousin than me. We spend more time together, of course by just living with one another. However, its like he's younger than me rather than 7 years older. He goes out late with her and they hang out on Friday nights sometimes too. Which is really fine, I do my own thing too. Every other Friday I go signing and that is what I did this Friday. However, when I was done with that come to find out they were at the exact same mall I was and went to dinner after. No invitation to me or anything. I'm not upset, more disappointed. I came home and sat alone until 11:30 or something until they came home with a movie.

I tell myself he did the same thing with his other cousin before she moved back to Colombia (This ones older sister actually.) But I was living in Minnesota then and I could careless. Now that I am here I spend time with him just sitting on our respective laptops and not even really talking. I do most of it of course. Chatter box that I am and sometimes wonder when I talk if he pays attention. I know he does though, he follows along and asks me about things later so I am lucky. I am very lucky. I guess I just wish he would include me. He says I do not have 'rapport' with her, which is true but how am I supposed to have one if they do not include me in their outings? Again, I'm really not bothered by it mostly but when they are out to dinner and I am just home alone, I would like an invitation. Their culture is different from mine and perhaps more candid conversation is made without me there, but after wandering around the mall for an hour or so together I would think they would have had enough chance to talk and would not mind including me in dinner at least... Jorge wants me to make friends here, which I am trying to. I just do not have family here so its trying to make friends in passing with people at classes and work. Problem is, I'm one of the youngest at work so there's a little gap....

anyway, I make it sounds worse than it actually is. I think because I'm so busy and Jorge is now going out without me I feel a little lonesome. Perhaps I am naive, that I do not see the gap of generation or culture. Though with his cousin, there is no generation gap really... she's my own little sister's age after all... Guess its just disheartening the one place I kind of expect to 'inherently' belong I do not seem to. Such is life, it has always been that way for me. Shame on my optimism to hope that over time that would change. Oh well, a hot bath is waiting for me and my sore back. I'll go soak in that instead of this momentary bubble of self-pity or whatever you'd care to call it.